My sweet baby boy,

It’s hard to believe that 18 beautiful months have passed since you blessed us. So much has changed since then.

First of all, you must know that you are my entire world. Life before you served little purpose; being your mommy is my greatest accomplishment. You are so perfect to me. When I look at your face each day, I feel overwhelmed with how much I adore you. I still am in disbelief that you are mine. You are my healthy, thriving son, and the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I wish I could freeze moments of your sweet little being.

Moments in which you gently sneak up from behind me and rest your head on my shoulder.
Moments in which you look up to me with your 12 crooked teeth and smile with your cheeks scrunched.
Moments in which your eyes light up when you see your daddy.
Moments in which you hide behind the corner and squeal with joy when I find you.
Moments in which you close your eyes and smile when you’re eating something yummy to savor it.

I miss you the moment you are no longer by my side.
I wake up each morning with my heart bursting with excitement to see you, all sleepy-eyed and disarrayed.

You are perfect to me.

I love everything about you.
I love hearing your gentle voice say “mama.”
I love when you outstretch your arms for me; for I am your safe place.
I love the way your eyes squint when you laugh.

And I love your tantrums. Oh yes, we are just starting the tantrum phase. I have to hide my fits of laughter from you when you surrender yourself and pound your feet on the floor. You are becoming independent and finding your voice. And as much as it pains me to watch you grow up, it equally serves as the greatest source of joy for your daddy and me to watch you find your place in this world.

Oh, how we adore you.

We love watching you grow, and we cannot wait to see what the future brings.

You are my little buddy, and I love doing life with you. I want to show you the world; for the world is an endless array of possibilities for you to experience. I will support you no matter what you do, where you go, and who you become. I can’t wait to see you unfold to be the person who you are meant to be.

Motherhood has changed me; you have helped me become a better version of myself.
One that is more patient, more gentle, more kind.
One that practices gratitude daily; one that relishes the simple moments.
I love this version of myself. It is my best version to date.

I would do anything for you, my sweet son.
I cannot find the words to describe how deeply I am in love with you.

Xo, Mommy